I've been off the past couple of days. Nothing seems to go right with my relationships. I am beginning to feel insecure with the idea that I may never be able to find real happiness at this time. All along I thought everything was okay but it hit me right in my face when I realized where everything is headed. I am now at a standstill waiting for whatever it is that is coming my way. It resembles the calm before a storm. I do not know how I will be able to handle everything at once but this time, I have to compromise and decide which I value more. I thought I already grew up, but I guess I have not. I have a lot to learn and I have a lot to see. I get so emotional too much that I always think of things even before they happen.
Relationships really takes hard work. Ideally, there should be no effort in making someone feel loved because it is supposed to be unconditional. When true, it surpasses all reason and leads you to perfect bliss. I have read hundreds of romance novels, all telling one thing, it is that true love does exist. But how to find yours is the biggest challenge. All of us have experienced, at one time or another, that we felt we have found the ONE but as time goes on we question ourselves if WE ever did find it. Once we start asking, we also start looking around us searching for answers or reasons that may pass as a scapegoat for whatever it is that we want to get away with. We are blinded by our ideals that we tend to expect more from others when in fact, expectations leads to disappointments.
I'm writing all this because I need to. I cannot express as much when I speak and yet I've been wanting to. I guess I'll never get the chance.
I will fight for this one, even though I know it will hurt like hell. But at least I can still get up, nurse my wounds and say that it was worth it. After all, loving is unconditional. I love too much. If this was punishable by law, I would have been sentenced for Life.
Relationships really takes hard work. Ideally, there should be no effort in making someone feel loved because it is supposed to be unconditional. When true, it surpasses all reason and leads you to perfect bliss. I have read hundreds of romance novels, all telling one thing, it is that true love does exist. But how to find yours is the biggest challenge. All of us have experienced, at one time or another, that we felt we have found the ONE but as time goes on we question ourselves if WE ever did find it. Once we start asking, we also start looking around us searching for answers or reasons that may pass as a scapegoat for whatever it is that we want to get away with. We are blinded by our ideals that we tend to expect more from others when in fact, expectations leads to disappointments.
I'm writing all this because I need to. I cannot express as much when I speak and yet I've been wanting to. I guess I'll never get the chance.
I will fight for this one, even though I know it will hurt like hell. But at least I can still get up, nurse my wounds and say that it was worth it. After all, loving is unconditional. I love too much. If this was punishable by law, I would have been sentenced for Life.
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